Finding Krissi

After a long day at "work," I'm still in what we will call the processing stage. Meaning, I don't really have an opinion about how all of this is working stuff is going. There was a lot of good points about today that I will be writing about soon. That is as soon as I am done processing the million things running through my head. A million little thoughts zinging around inside my brain, and I would be lying if I didn't admit to a doubt or two. Doubts are just kind of status quo for me. This is usually when I give myself the it is all going to be great lecture. I think I will get to that later. What I would like to talk about is the home and family. Returning to work has not been without its challenges. On one hand I have to be thankful that my husbands job slows down in January. WAY DOWN! I can't believe I am actually thankful for his lack of hours. However, it is helping as we make this transition. He has been super helpful, but no matter wh...

Tomorrow is my first day of student teaching. A whole day in a classroom. I was able to do a few hours of observations last week so my nerves are calm. Now it is just a matter of becoming a full time working mom, minus the pay, for the next ten weeks. That has me a tiny bit nervous and worried how it will all work out. However, last week while I was in the class I was relaxed and ready for this adventure. I'm sure that I have some challenging days ahead, but I'm in the naive stage and I believe that everything is going to be perfect.  

First thing Tuesday morning I was scheduled to meet my student teaching class. Monday night I went to bed excited and a tad nervous. Then I spent the entire night tossing, turning, and working myself up. By the time my alarm went off Tuesday morning I had myself seriously worked up. I am talking walking on an electric wire worked up. The morning seemed to dissaper in a blink and it was time for me to leave. I can't really tell you exactly what I was thinking as I drove to the school. I know I was trying all kinds of positive thinking. Only for every positive statement I made a nasty little negative comment would sneak in. For example: Positive Thought! "Calm down you already met the teacher and she seemed really nice. You are going to be just fine." Negative Thought!! "Well at least you thought she was nice maybe she isn't really nice maybe she is going to be totally evil, and she was just on pain meds the first time you met!" Positive ...

Today was my first day of work with the kids. Guess what? I'm tired! I'm exhausted! I feel like I just rode a bike a 100 miles. It was fun and the kids are great but oh my gosh I'm tired. Did I mention I was tired? This working stuff is a lot of work. Kids, well they're kids. (Bet you read this blog just to read the obvious) They are totally random. Trying to keep them on task is like trying to keep a puppy from chewing. FRUITLESS! The ideas that come out of their heads. Umm, okay! Was I like that? Are my kids like that? Don't answer that I already know the answer. I just don't particularly like the answer. Then there are the names, PARENTS!!!! What are you thinking? There is one child that I am going to call Whoseit all year because I cannot pronounce his name. Which is obviously my problem and not his being as he told me how to say it 12 times. Then I had to ask the 6th graders what they are reading because I'm cool and I know all about books. Except for t...