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The Sun

In the seven years that we have lived in Utah, I have yet to adjust to the winter. I really do not like the cold and the gloom of the winter months. I could almost forgive the winters if they were quick. However, they just drag on and on through the months.

With a certain amount of dread I look at the calendar and think winter is coming, YUCK!!

Today, as I was riding my bike I started thinking about my century ride. It is kind of funny when you are stuck on a bike for a certain amount of time your brain just starts wandering your thoughts tripping over one another.

I was thinking how at one point in the ride the rain started to sprinkle, then it started to pour, and soon I was soaked and the wind was blowing. It really sucked and it was hard to keep going when all I wanted to do was quit. It was especially hard watching others quit and trying not to follow their example.

As I was thinking about this experience and the winter months that are looming in front of me I started thinking about the sun. There is nothing quite like the sun shining. As I continued riding there came a point in time when the rain stopped the clouds moved away and the sun shone. When all of the sudden the ride became the most doable thing in the whole world because the sun was shining. Winter is kind of like that you go days and days with gloom and suddenly the sun will break through and your heart just wants to sing.

All of these thoughts were tripping around in my head and I started thinking about my life lately. I realized I had been living in the gloom, the rain, and the wind. The sun had been nowhere in sight and I was battling with the feelings of just wanting to give up. I really had no idea what I wanted to give up on I just wanted to give up, call uncle, say, “I quit!”

However, I just kept peddling feeling like something was going to show up and make everything easier. Guess what, nothing has shown up and made life easier. Although, a series of events have happened to make things seem worse. Really, life just seemed to get harder and harder.

You have to know I have been sending out the, “Why Me’s!”

Meanwhile, I have been working my but off to try to figure out how to make it better. What is so stupid is that the whole time the answer was right in front of my nose. Faith! Faith that life is a blessing, Faith that we are here for a reason, Faith that things just don’t happen but they happen for a reason.

Then as I finished my ride I had one final thought. I have been waiting for the sun to shine instead of turning to the Son for help.

Just a thought and one that I should keep in mind more often.

Comments

Willow said…
You know, I find it amazing that though we haven't seen each other in YEARS, you manage to write exactly what I need to hear. Thanks for this post... I needed the pep talk.

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